some changes

Let me start off by saying that I have not been a very faithful blogger! I have been in a very strange place since Isabella came home. It hasn't been a bad place- just different. I am going to share something that some readers may have a problem with, but it is my blog and I am going "there".

I LOVE that we grew our family through adoption and am so grateful to Bella's birthmom for the sacrifice she made for her and our family. I pray that she will someday know how loved her daughter is by our family and friends. We do (and will continue to) talk freely about adoption; however, we are ready to move past "our adoption" and begin living as a family of 4. (Be patient with me... all of these thoughts are jumbled and chaotic and I am struggling with getting my point across in a coherent manner.) It's not that we haven't been living.. its just that I feel we have been healing. Those of you that followed our adoption, know that it was QUITE STRESSFUL, to say the least. Although, she came home in Oct. 0f 2007, I only now have begun to feel like the healing of our hearts and emotions (and bodies!) has happened.

Adoption will ALWAYS be a part of who we are as a family, but I feel like it is time to move on from all the hurts and losses and begin to just BE. Does that make sense? It is the only way I know how to say it. With that being said, I have decided to open a new blog. It will be a blog: where I blog about life as a mom that feels like a success some days and a mom that has had her share of failures, where I am a wife struggling to be all that I can to the man God has given me. A place to just be 'me'- living the life that God blessed me with.

I feel like the season of healing is over and I have emerged ready for the next phase He has for our family. So it is with great pleasure, that I invite you to join us at http://thisandthat-jajbs.blogspot.com/. I will be a much more faithful blogger... at least, those are my intentions! ;)